Stephen “tWitch” Boss‘ mom is opening up for the first time since her son’s tragic loss of life.
As we beforehand reported, the 40-year-old dancer and The Ellen DeGeneres Show DJ died by suicide in December, simply weeks earlier than Christmas. Most lately, his post-mortem report revealed the heartbreaking information that he had no medicine or alcohol in his system on the time he died from a self-inflicted gunshot wound. So, so unhappy…
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Now, on Wednesday, his mother is able to share her remaining messages concerning her beloved son. While talking with People, Connie Boss Alexander took a glance again at tWitch’s life — and the way issues have modified since his loss of life:
“Sometimes it feels like it was just yesterday, and then other times it feels like it’s been so long since I’ve seen him.”
The 59-year-old went on to say, although, that she finds peace in figuring out this isn’t the tip:
“When I think about him, I try not to dwell on how he left this earth. This is not totally the end. That is where my peace comes from.”
Connie revealed that the final time she spoke together with her son was the day earlier than he died — and even in that second, he was so selfless and caring — which made his passing much more of a shock. Discussing his remaining messages to her, she recalled:
“I’d been sick, so he texted to ask how I was feeling. That was the last time we talked. To the extent that Stephen may have been in a Black depression — no, not Stephen. He was so in tune with analyzing and trying to make himself better, reading self-help books, so this came as a complete shock.”
Even after she heard the information of his loss of life, the grandmother says she by no means anticipated his passing to go the best way it did:
“[Death by suicide] was not my first thought — that it had been his hand. I really thought something had happened to him.”
Thinking again to December 13, that tragic day, Connie stated she simply knew one thing horrible had occurred. While ready to get a speedy COVID take a look at, she felt her nervousness kick in:
“I immediately started placing calls to see if anyone had seen or spoken with him. Finding that nobody had, my brother and I bought plane tickets. … And my brother called to ask where I was. Then my sister-in-law called: ‘Hey, we’re just checking on where you are.’ In the pit of my stomach, I knew something was wrong,”
The second she discovered tWitch was gone is a whole “blur” to her now:
“I went to my parents’ house and walked in. They were just standing there looking at me, and I said, ‘Have you heard something?’ All I remember hearing was, ‘Connie, he’s gone.’ And I remember screaming or falling to my knees. The rest of the day is more of a blur.”
Just gut-wrenching. The ache of a mom dropping her son is one thing indescribable…
Incredibly, although, Connie has discovered peace amid all her heartbreak — and she or he is aware of her boy is alright on the opposite aspect:
“You find yourself in a lot of introspection, a lot of looking back. ‘Did I miss something? Did he mean something when he said this?’ At this point, I’m in realization, I guess. When I wake up in the morning, it does hit me that, ‘oh my God, he really is not physically here.’ But then in my head I can hear him say, ‘Hey, Mom. I’m OK.’”
As for her final texts she exchanged with tWitch? She all the time holding tight to these remaining phrases:
“He started that last text with, “I love you, Mom,’ And I responded, ‘I love you more.’”
Tear-jerking! What a treasure for her to have in these low moments…
Our hearts proceed to be with the Boss household and their family members. Stephen’s legacy will certainly encourage and contact so many for years to return.
If you or somebody you understand is considering suicide, assist is obtainable. Consider contacting the 988 Suicide & Crisis Lifeline at 988, by calling, texting, or chatting, or go to 988lifeline.org.
[Image via Connie Boss Alexander/Instagram]
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