BlueSuburbia takes you to a place that’s full of a lonely sort of menace – an oppressive worry that crushes you because it tells you that nobody will come prevent.
CONTENT WARNING: Self hatred. But perhaps I’m studying this mistaken?
It felt just like the eyes had been throughout me as I walked via this place. They peered from all corners. They peeked from the earth below my ft. Something was all the time staring regardless of the place I walked. In a place so loaded with an amazing sense of imminent destruction – a world that might consistently collapse and reshape, full of uncertainty – they might simply watch me. Gawk away as I attempted to search out someplace secure, however couldn’t. Not one in every of them appeared all for serving to me, although. They would simply stare as I ran, in search of a way out of right here. It was like I used to be some type of leisure to them. That they simply wished to see me undergo.
This feeling made the remainder of the sport’s scary environment lower all of the deeper. I attempted to flee from a spider that referred to as for me to come back nearer, however the roads all appeared to guide again to it. I discover myself in infinite halls full of photographs of self-loathing, and an inside thought course of that desires me to hate myself. It guarantees some kind of freedom in accepting that I deserve this hatred. That it needs to be my mantle or legacy, and that accepting it and being consumed by it’s the proper strategy to work via it. Fighting it feels exhausting, All roads lead again to the spider, like I stated a second in the past. So why stroll? Where do I anticipate to go?
I really feel like I’ve to attempt. I really feel like I have to proceed this stroll to know, even because it breaks my coronary heart and calls for to interrupt my soul together with it. BlueSuburbia is a crushing imaginative and prescient of despair, the bottomless worth you pay for being harm and daring to discuss it, your agonies being was ‘content’, and extra. Saying I wish to spend extra time right here could be unfaithful. I’m afraid of this place. It hurts to face right here and pay attention. But I really feel that I’ve to see this via.
And there’s a spiteful hope by the tip of the demo that I’m greedy onto. A hope that I wish to roar so loud it shakes the Earth.
I’ve to see it via.
BlueSuburbia is at the moment in growth, however within the meantime, you’ll be able to seize a demo from itch.io.
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