‘He told me if I wouldn’t do it, he could easily find someone who would’

Paris Hilton is sharing the traumatic story behind her notorious intercourse tape.

In an excerpt from her upcoming memoir printed in U.Okay. newspaper the Times, the heiress and entrepreneur, 42, speaks candidly about how she ended up taking part within the tape with ex-boyfriend Rick Salomon, whom she doesn’t point out by title.

Hilton, who was simply 18 when she first met Salomon, who proudly glided by the nickname “Scum,” says she does not bear in mind a lot in regards to the evening he requested her to make the videotape. But she says that “he kept pushing,” and told her no person however themselves would ever see it. Desperate to look mature in entrance of her older boyfriend, Hilton was struggling to know her sexuality at that age and “wanted to feel like a woman who’s comfortable in her own skin.”

“He told me if I wouldn’t do it, he could easily find someone who would, and that was the worst thing I could think of — to be dumped by this grown man because I was a stupid kid who didn’t know how to play grown-up games,” the Paris: the Memoir writer writes, including that she used alcohol and Quaaludes to let her guard down.

“I needed to prove something to him and to myself, so I got hammered, and I did it,” she shares.

In 2003, lengthy after the couple had cut up, Hilton discovered the tape had been leaked on-line.

“It took me a minute to make the connection to that private video. I had to close my eyes and breathe. I felt like I was going to throw up. It was inconceivable to me,” she writes. While she reached out to Salomon begging him to cease the discharge, he told her he had each proper to promote the tape as a result of it “had a lot of financial value” on account of her burgeoning fame.

“More value than my privacy, obviously. My dignity. My future. Shame, loss and stark terror swept over me,” says Hilton, who was set to look in The Simple Life. Now a mom herself, Hilton additionally appears again on the impact her video had on her mom, Kathy Hilton, who “just crumpled into bed and stayed there.” Her father, Rick Hilton, was “red-faced and furious,” and did no matter he could to carry out harm management.

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“The world thinks of me as a sex symbol, and I’m here for that, because symbol literally means icon. But when people saw that sex tape, they didn’t say ‘icon, they said slut.’ They said ‘whore.’ And they weren’t shy about it,” the star writes.

Last month, Hilton opened up in a revealing interview with Glamour UK in regards to the sexual abuse she suffered as a teen. She shared about shedding her virginity to an older man who she says drugged and raped her, in addition to being groomed by certainly one of her highschool lecturers.

“I was just such a young girl and I got manipulated by my teacher,” she defined. “He took advantage of a young girl and that was something I blocked out as well, I didn’t remember it until years later … he would call me on the phone all the time, just flirting with me, trying to put in my mind that I was this mature woman.”

Hilton has additionally spoken at size about her expertise at Utah’s Provo Canyon School, the place she confronted emotional and bodily abuse as a teen. She first opened up in regards to the expertise in her 2020 YouTube documentary, and has gone on to function an advocate to close down related faculty packages.

“It’s made such change and I’ve changed laws and now taking this to a federal level,” she shared final 12 months throughout an look on the Australian information program The Project, Yahoo Entertainment beforehand reported. “So I just feel proud of the woman I am and what I’ve been through and how strong I am. I feel that this is now my legacy and something that is my mission in life and something that really has deep meaning and that I’m going to continue fighting until change is made.”