Kendra Wilkinson didn’t (and nonetheless doesn’t!) care what anybody anticipated of her after Hugh Hefner‘s loss of life.
In a brand new interview with People out on Saturday, the previous Playboy mannequin revealed she’s been pressured to stay up for the businessman after his passing in 2017 and amid a slew of icky allegations — however she doesn’t give a f**okay!
Kendra’s angle about all of this in all probability began the day he died — when, as an alternative of mourning his loss, she “smoked a lot of weed” and received excessive at a Sublime live performance. Defending her actions, she defined:
“I’m not going to sit here and protect him. Hugh Hefner decided to date millions of girls, right? That’s not my responsibility. And whatever happened with him, with his relationships, that was his thing. It’s not my responsibility to protect a man for his life choices.”
Very true! And for the file, they’d lengthy been damaged up by the point he died at age 91, so it’s comprehensible why she didn’t care to sit down round and grieve.
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Besides, she’s had her fingers full simply making an attempt to unpack the trauma she skilled. The Girls Next Door alum, who lived within the Playboy mansion from 2004 to 2009, has been doing a ton of remedy to unpack the sophisticated time of her life, she added:
“I got into deep regret [afterwards]. I got to that point where I started hating myself [and asking], ‘Why did I have sex with Hugh Hefner?’ I hated my boobs, my body, my face. I got to that point where I started hating myself.”
Oof. So unhappy!
But, as Perezcious readers know, after she ultimately left the mansion, the 38-year-old married soccer participant Hank Baskett, later welcoming children Hank Jr., 14, and Alijah, 9. So, she’s had her fingers full in additional methods than one. And via this all, her previous has continued to hang-out her. It was simply final September that she was hospitalized and identified with anxiousness and melancholy, one thing she seemingly blames on Playboy. She says that point in her profession and public existence “messed up her whole life,” noting:
“It’s not easy to look back at my 20s. I’ve had to face my demons.”
And but, regardless of all she went via, individuals have nonetheless urged her to defend and defend her ex — it doesn’t matter what! She expressed:
“Do you know how many people were putting pressure on me to stick up for Hef with all his allegations and all this stuff? That’s not my responsibility to stick up for someone like that. That’s what started triggering me because people were like, ‘Well, why don’t you stick up for him?’ And I had a marriage to my ex-husband and now two kids to focus on now, not Hugh Hefner.”
Oh, no! Terrible that each one this stress led to a few of her most up-to-date psychological well being struggles! We can not think about how anxious and irritating it should be to have so many individuals telling her what to do as she was merely simply making an attempt to maneuver on. Speaking of, Kendra went on:
“Hef kept appearing in my life and there were times where I wanted to stop that. I’m, like, ‘Hef’s not a part of my life anymore. Can we not include Hef in my life moving forward?’”
Making an vital distinction, she furthered:
“He was five years of my life. He’s not my life. So there were times where I kept trying to part ways with Playboy and it just kept following me through time. I had to really face the truth of it all.”
While she’s extra open to talking about her previous now, the blonde magnificence can be simply as keen to maneuver ahead, reminiscent of by specializing in her actual property profession. We get it!
It’s actually fascinating to listen to her tackle all this, particularly as Crystal Hefner has been opening up a ton in her new autobiography, Only Say Good Things. And if the title wasn’t already a sign, she advised DailyMail.com final 12 months:
“My relationship and marriage to Hugh Hefner was a very complicated one. It was one where, no matter how I was treated, I always felt like I had to protect him, which is why I have not shared my story until now. Since his passing, I have had to do a lot of self-discovery. I have had to find out who I am without it being dictated to me. I have had to not only find my voice, but I also had to learn how to use that voice. My book is a testament to the power of time, processing all that I have been through and embracing my truth.”
Kendra won’t’ve been sticking by Hugh’s aspect after his loss of life — however that doesn’t imply a few of his women weren’t prepared to do no matter it took to guard him! Now, although?! Seems they’re all sick of protecting secrets and techniques! Thoughts?! Let us know (beneath)!
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