A tough dialog. Raquel Leviss suffered from a panic assault whereas addressing her cut up from James Kennedy — and the following aftermath — throughout season 10 of Vanderpump Rules.
During a brand new episode of the hit Bravo sequence, which aired on Wednesday, March 15, Raquel, 28, opened as much as Lala Kent, Katie Maloney and Kristina Kelly about her resolution to finish her engagement.
“I was actually planning on leaving him when he went to London to visit his dad,” the California native, who introduced the cut up in December 2022, recalled. “No [I wasn’t going to tell him]. I was going to pack up all my stuff and leave the ring box with the ring in it with a note.”
Raquel mentioned she struggled with the following chapter of her life after the breakup, including, “I feel like in a relationship like that where I am so focused on James, I lost my identity and now being single is my new identity.”
As the sweetness pageant contestant continued to debate her private life, she began to cry on display screen.
“Literally people have been asking, ‘Raquel who are you?’ And my answer is ‘I don’t know.’” Raquel mentioned earlier than she began having hassle respiratory. “I am just trying to figure out my life. I don’t feel good — I feel shaky.”
Raquel’s costars helped her work by means of her nervousness earlier than they stored touring on their woman’s journey. “I don’t know [how to let things go]. I beat myself up over everything,” she advised Lala, 32, Katie, 36, and Kristina about addressing her points.
James, 31, and Raquel stunned Vanderpump Rules viewers — and their costars — after they introduced their resolution to half methods on the season 9 reunion.
“We have decided to break off the engagement. It’s been something that I have been thinking about for a while, and I think that James has noticed that my heart hasn’t been fully in it,” Raquel shared throughout the January 2022 particular. “I didn’t want to give up on him because he really has shown me how dedicated he is to me and the things that he is willing to do to better himself. But I feel like it is something deep within. I have been having nightmares about our wedding day, and I think that’s a telltale sign that something is wrong.”
After filming started on season 10, Us Weekly confirmed that Tom Schwartz connected with Raquel at Scheana Shay and Brock Davies‘ August 2022 marriage ceremony. As new episodes continued to be launched, information broke off display screen in March that Tom Sandoval and Ariana Madix referred to as it quits after practically a decade as a result of he cheated with Raquel.
In response to the drama, Raquel took to social media to concern a public apology to Ariana, 37. “I want to apologize for my actions and my choices foremost to Ariana, and to my friends and the fans so invested in our relationships. There is no excuse, I am not a victim and I must own my actions and I deeply regret hurting Ariana,” she wrote through Instagram on March 8.
The Bravo star defined that she was going to talk to “a counselor” about her points. “I have sought emotional validation through intimate connections that are not healthy without regard for my own well-being, sometimes negatively affecting others and often prioritizing the intimate connection over my friendships,” she continued. “I am taking steps to understand my behavior and make healthier choices.”
That identical day, Raquel opened up about the place she and Sandoval, 40, stand now. “Besides the indefensible circumstances surrounding our relationship, my feelings for Tom have always been sincere and born out of a loving friendship,” she wrote through Instagram. “Knowing how many people we hurt, I need to understand my choices and learn to make better ones. I need to take care of my health, work on self growth and take time to be OK with being alone. I care for Tom and I don’t want to label anything or predict what lies ahead. Right now I need to heal.”
Sandoval, for his half, “liked” Raquel’s message about their relationship. He additionally requested that viewers not take out their anger on his eating places earlier than posting a second message which addressed his now-ex-girlfriend amid backlash.
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