Rachel “Raquel” Leviss opened up about her breakdown over James Kennedy on the most recent episode of her new podcast.
While wanting again on the journeys to Las Vegas and Lake Tahoe that the Vanderpump Rules solid took amid season 10, Raquel, 29, defined what led as much as her breakdown and mentioned her and James’ cut up whereas additionally dishing on her producers’ manipulations, how Tom Sandoval, 41, fooled her, and why she’s satisfied that she’s residing in Scheana Shay‘s thoughts “rent-free.”
“No one understands that I was really hungover … and I had anxiety,” Raquel recalled of the drive from Las Vegas to Lake Tahoe on the January 29 episode of Rachel Goes Rogue.
Although Raquel started to confide in her castmates, who included Lala Kent, 33, Katie Maloney, 37, and Kristina Kelly, 36, amid the journey, she mentioned the dialog they’d was fairly “vulnerable” and one she would usually have with folks nearer to her.
“I knew in the back of my mind that these are not safe people for you to bare it all to, and as I was telling them the story of me planning to break up with James and how I had intentions of leaving the ring box on the counter when he got back from Europe and that all of my stuff was going to be gone, and how I felt that that would be the safest way for me to break up with him,” she defined.
According to Raquel, she didn’t go into the main points of why she and James have been calling it quits as a result of she didn’t wish to damage his life.
“Only a few people know that story and it was also at a time when I didn’t want to tell the world because I didn’t want to ruin his life,” she famous. “I think that’s what really brought on that panic attack because I wanted to say these things. There was more to that story and I was holding myself back and overthinking everything and knowing that this isn’t a safe place. That anxiety built up so much so that I couldn’t breathe, I felt faint, I couldn’t see, and I just started hyperventilating.”
After arriving in Lake Tahoe, the place Charli Burnett, 26, met up together with her and their castmates, Raquel didn’t really feel welcomed, and together with Charli, she wished to go house.
“The girls were talking … filling Charli in and kind of mocking me, you know, poking at me and one of my producers pulled me aside and said, ‘Hey, you’re letting these girls pick on you right now. You should really stick up for yourself,’” Raquel shared. “And I’m like, ‘I’m so tired right now. I can’t do it.’”
The producer then identified to Raquel that it was hypocritical for Lala to be saying she doesn’t belief her round her man as a result of she cheated with James.
“‘If anyone can’t trust anybody around their man, it would be her, right?’” the producer reportedly requested.
“And I was like, ‘Yeah, yeah. That’s a good point.’ So I was trying to take this direction and say my piece to stand up for myself,” Raquel defined. “[I felt] this pressure that I need to live up to this part of me that’s not allowing people to bully me anymore and not allowing their option of me to influence my opinion of myself and really standing up for myself, but it wasn’t done in a way that was empowering to me. It was prompted by an outside force and not something I would normally say.”
While producers didn’t wish to see Raquel and Charli go away, they finally agreed to let her go — if she would do as they directed.
“They said, ‘Fine, you can leave, only if you tell the girls you’re going to go meet up with the guys and guys’ night.’ And I’m like, ‘Okay,’ and then they said, ‘And tell Lala that you think she’s just jealous of you because you’re the one that got with [Oliver Saunders], not her, and that he chose you,’” Raquel alleged.
Once Raquel delivered the road as she was reportedly instructed, producers allowed her to go away — however demanded she go on to guys’ night time in Los Angeles, the place she was greeted by Sandoval, who acted shocked to see her.
“So Charli and I walk in and who’s the brightest-eyed, bushy-tailed one to see me, who is so thrilled that I just walked in, other than Tom Sandoval? And it’s such BS too because I heard somebody say, ’Tom definitely knew.’ Producers definitely told Tom that Charli and [I] were about to walk in like he was ready for that scene, and I’m like, ‘God dammit, he fooled me. I thought he was genuinely happy to see me.’ I was like, ‘This is what it feels like to be appreciated and feel like you’re welcomed in a room and feel like somebody wants you there, like, the stark contrast.’ But then later on, [I found] out that he was acting, and that wasn’t fully genuine,” she shared.
Also on the podcast episode, Raquel denied residing in Scheana’s condominium rent-free.
“I subletted her apartment,” she clarified. “She wanted to keep her L.A. apartment while she was living in her house in San Diego with her family. This was also during the pandemic, so she had this COVID rate on her apartment, and she wanted to keep it, but she didn’t want to be paying such a large sum of money each month when she wasn’t even using it.”
Because Scheana knew Raquel was home searching on the time, Raquel mentioned she supplied her condominium to her at a reduced fee.
“I paid my low rent every month, plus utilities, and I also cat sat for her cat who had, it was a procedure where they had to pump her cat with mercury, and because the baby couldn’t be exposed to the mercury, she needed someone to look after this cat. So I was like ‘I’ll look after her. It’s not a problem.’ So it worked out pretty well for both of us,” Raquel famous.
Now, nonetheless, after Scheana advised she didn’t cost Raquel hire, Raquel is setting the file straight.
“She’s saying that I lived there rent-free, but it seems to be that I live rent-free in Scheana’s mind,” she acknowledged.
Vanderpump Rules season 11 airs Tuesdays at 8/7c on Bravo.
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